Sadie Bug

Our Christmas was spent in Alabama this year with my side of the family. We had a nice Christmas & I will post about that later once I upload pictures. Unfortunately we had a sad ending. This past Sunday Aaron & I had to put Sadie down. She wasn't acting herself & we could tell something was terribly wrong. At first we thought she ate something to make her feel bad. Then we thought maybe she was car sick from traveling all day on Saturday. Sunday morning we saw no improvements & as the day went on she was in more pain. That afternoon Aaron was checking her again & he saw 3 big spots of blood underneath her skin on her belly. We took her to the ER vet. Aaron spent several hours there with our little girl & finally they got around to her. Bloodwork came back & it showed she had poison in her blood stream. We called my parents & there was rat poison behind their frig. We had no idea she had eaten some, but Aaron said he recalled her sniffing back there & eating something (which we assumed was crumbs) throughout our visit. When he took her to the vet deep down I knew she prob wouldn't return, but I was praying for the best. We couldn't afford all the medical care she would need & still there was no guarantee Sadie would live. We decided the best thing was to put her down so she wouldn't suffer anymore. The poison had eaten 3 holes thru her intestinal wall, causing the internal bleeding. Aaron came home late that night & my heart sank. He told me the nurses fell in love with my little Sadie Bug & asked him to read over some information. It was a waiver to sign all of our rights over Sadie to the hospital. If we were to do that, they would proceed with the blood transfusions & any surgery needed. If Sadie made it, they would find a family that would adopt her. I called the hospital once & they told us they couldn't give any information since we signed over rights. It broke my heart. I cried for 2 days & I still choke up talking about it. So we actually don't know if she lived, but our feeling is that she didn't make it. Sadie had been eating on it all week & she had to have had alot in her system. It seemed too severe & too late for her to survive. But then I struggle with "What if she did?" If she did, she didn't come home to us, her "pack" as we would say. I loved that little dog, she was my shadow. Sadie always had to be where I was & she would get so excited to see me. I know she'll make a good dog for someone else, but she'll always be mine. The hard part for me is to see her face & her sad eyes that last day. She was in alot of pain & those images are burned into my mind. I'm just trying to have faith that Heavenly Father did the best thing for her. Whether it was passing away or if another family needed her more. We miss her sweetness in our home. She made us laugh many times & was a great playmate for Elvis. I think the movie "All Dogs Go to Heaven" is true, I always have believed it since I was little. I love Sadie alot & she'll always have a soft spot in my heart. I'm so grateful for Aaron. He's been so senstive & understanding this week. We've been able to spend alot of time together & he's helped take my mind off it. He was sad too, but I always told him if anything happened to either of our dogs I'd be heartbroken. I'm really lucky to have this sweet guy.